What emoticon means 'my heart has just been ripped out of my chest and stomped on by elephants'?

I just... I... I don't even...

Sunanare 4. I... I... aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaugh. Even this icon is not angsty enough for that episode.

I even felt really fucking bad for the psycho bitch.

And then the preview for 5. I understand the flailing a tiny bit now, Krill. @_______________@

Oh god, this show hurts me. Kitagawa-san, I love you so.